the amplification ov truth.

The dark day..

2009-08-27T03:05:00.001-07:00

why do we always seem to blog about the sad part of our life more than the happy ones? Life is complicated, cliche i know..
Another sad chapter happened to me just today.. I dont want to gve full details about it.. I wanted to, but i know it wont change a thing..

'if u think u have given me so much leeway all tis while, u havent actually'

I miss being happy

2009-08-23T09:02:00.001-07:00

Now whats left of me is just lonliness.. Im not really a holy person but atleast i know what not to do.. Im stubborn but i still know when to give up and to forgive (well, at least i try..)
You would say youre forgetful, but are you being forgetful when u intentionally hide things away coz your mindset tells u that am ALWAYS negative? Are u being equal when we were fightin, u met a random person the next day? Are u being equal when u promised not to do things i dislike but when we fight u doing it? are u being equal when u treated me like a piece of trash? Are u being equal when am at right, u still wont let yourself lose coz its your 'defence mechanism' and i have to get over it? Are u being equal when am trying to be civil and mengalah but u knock me down over and over again instead?

Thank you?

2009-08-22T23:45:00.000-07:00

I dont need nobody to judge me. Its funny when u think i always knock you down when we quarrel.
Just admit your wrong and explain it civily.who put more fuel in the fire? If we know that we are at wrong, so dont be too stubborn to say SORRY! Maybe u dont realise that YOU also knock me down at times.so what do u undestand by 'equality' then??

Just a thought

2009-08-22T11:48:00.001-07:00

i can not tolerate people who cheat.. But humanly speakin i sometimes think white lie is needed. But not always. I mean, when u think u can speak the truth, just spill it. Dont excuse your forgetfulness to save yourself out of troubles.. Then that will become an absolute lie..
And when you quarrel, dont always think that your partner is afraid that you're cheating.. Sometimes all they want is just purely your explainations on related matters and them being insecured and paranoid that youre being dishonest (note this down, honesty is one of the ingredients needed in love) so logically, dishonesty = less lovesparks = break up.
So you dont expect your partner to 'chill' when this happens. Perhaps what u must do is to convince them that u love em.. Its a very 'Simple' solution yet due to stubborness and the desire to always be the victor, aint no all people wise enough can do this.

last but not least

2009-08-22T11:10:00.000-07:00

How would it feel to be knocked down when all u want is just a simple apology? How would you feel to be given an option when initially back in the past you already told that person that you were taken but he/she still insisted to accept that fact and wanted to give it a try? How would you react when you found out he/she did somethin bad behind your back? How would you react when he/she always think that you think he/she hadnt done anythin for you when all u want is just appreciation? How would you feel when sometimes eventhough youre at right side but he/she wouldnt want to admit it but to win it instead?

Love is really complicated..

Selamat menunaikan ibadah puasa..

mixed feelings.

2009-06-03T08:04:00.001-07:00

Life is full of unexpected surprises, indeed. For the past few months, i thought i would never get employed but i was wrong.. In just a blink ov eye, im officially a working man now. Been working approximately 20days already. I should not complain but since its my first time working experience, it really is hard to get used to the working ambience, the staff and i hafta reschedule everyting includin my bed time, eating time etc. And that explains why you cant find me on msn. Sorry if u guys feel neglected. Am just so busy w work.
Anyhoo, eventhough i kinda like this job ov mine, i hafta admit, sometimes it sucks to be in the service industry especially if u happen to meet cranky psychotic customers who think they know shits and get mad at you for no good reasons *sighs* but really, i realise this kinda job can definitely help u in managing your anger. Huhu. right~
i didnt get the chance to hang out w any ov my friends since i start working so again, pardon me for that also.. oh oh.. I love my colleagues!they are so fun and bitchy~~ huhu some ov them only though.
Enough w the happy bits. Mmm i feel so down tonight. Feel sorta inappreciated to be exact. Mmm oh well, i think i should just sleep it off. Will update again when i have time~ tc.

somehow i will

2009-05-13T09:49:00.000-07:00

I needed a dream when it all seems to go bad..
I needed a dream, to make me strong..
U were my dream.. But now ... I just need a miracle..

We've lost the spark?

2009-05-13T09:46:00.001-07:00

*sighs* my heart aches.
u made me thought u could make me happy but what u showed me now is just another heartbreak.
if i were u, i wouldnt be here..

when the heart breaks.

2009-05-03T11:02:00.001-07:00

i missed my childhood life - although i couldnt remember totally what id been through. those years were great. i have no shit to think about. i could cry, make noises and run away from problems i caused whenever i wanted to and had all those beautiful things that i desired. but things are different now.... Broken inside, i need you as a strength to survive, like the air i breathe.. but where are u during my darkest moments? vanished and drifted away to an unknown place, nowhere to be found.. say ure sorry but see if that can heal this wounds.. i trusted you but time will tell me if its worth the sacrifice.. Earn it if u want it to be..

not quite a farewell.

2009-04-27T20:54:00.001-07:00

Mmhm.. *clears throat* ouch! am having sorethroat and i dont like it. it annoys me and, my right leg hurts because ov the exhausting hiking at bkt shahbandar last saturday. yes! Been 4 hell days for me. even worse, after hiking and bathed then tarus headed to my cuz's belated birthday party/bbq. Gylaa.. i was very lethargic man!!
and people w their obvious-surprised-looks said that im getting more fleshy now =.=' aint my fault.. Food likes me.. *chuckles* but of course i denied that statement. am not fleshy, just.. err come on! whats the right term? Think think think. Its SADANG aka not fat nor skinny!! In between. :D oh oh. Dye, i read ur bloggie just now.. We (on behalf ov the rejects) also miss u.. youre one lucky gurl.. Hope u will enjoy being the bridemaid.. Trust me, i used to being the groom-man (?) twice and it wasnt that exciting. Huhu coz u have to be less attractive takut steal her spotlight krg. Huhu imagine all eyes on u instead ov the bride *laughs* that kinda happened to me once.. am not proud ov it but people thought i was the one who getting married!! am like 'blame the makeup artist already~~' *bitchy tone* lol jk. oh.. i chatted w Shirley last night n she said 'harm, i miss ure crazy jokes' huhu cute~~
btw.. payday sudah! cant wait to go to miri.. i wana dye my hair, go to the clubs and have fun, fun, more fun and more more fun *smiles*
what else? *thinks* oh lady, be strong ayte!
Guess am outta ideas already.. Bh assalam :]

no time to cry coz imma heartbreaker.

2009-04-21T12:08:00.001-07:00

am bored and stil awake. drowsy already thou. i just finished watchin the golden compass and mariah carey's concert. U can tell how bored i am now ayte? Huhu. i dont know whats wrong w me today. some odd-i-dont-know-thing bothers me.. maybe am just plain tired? Antah eh :/
oh oh i went to the mall masa tadi afternoon. am so happy. Hehe coz se xperia 1 punya price turun sudah :D yippey!
Mmm apalagi uh? nothing much happened bah lately. just the usual habits : get up, wash up, eat, tv, on9, eat, tv, eat, eat, eat, n eat. Lol. Yeah im bigger now. Seriously need to lose some weight.. Coz takut jeans na muat lagy. Hehe
bah, aku nato kan write apa lagy. I just wish everyone will achieve their hope and dreams.. Insyallah. Bbye :] assalam~

i see myself as an angel..

2009-04-19T10:22:00.001-07:00

heres some ov the things ive done lately.. (gosh! a very lame opening.. :i ) erk.
ive been very busy uknow~ pardon me for that. anyhoo, i was invited by shuif to someone's birthday party at empire beach on last friday. saw few people that i knew of.. ( personal comment: the party wasnt reali exciting like what i expected but i got myself hurt while playing the banana boat. We -fizah, amal, shuif and me almost got drowned!! Twice!! That was OMG!! To me~ *eyes widen* Reali thankful to fizah's friend. She saved me. Yeah, i dont know how to swim or float myself. ) but hey, am still alive. Huhu. Nasib jua pkai the lifejacket.. F not, id be eaten by sharks. Huhu over?
mmhm moving on, am still unemployed :/ huhu its so sad. I mean, now i feel demotivated to study. Mcm, eventhough u have results yg handal or bagus p payah jua dapat kaja. somebody has to do somtin abt it! Mbri takut eh. Less and less opportunity sudah. *sighs*
apa lagi kan d buat ane?im reali running out of ideas :/. aku mau persian cat. My hamsters cute and my rabbits basar sudah. Huhu i think mybe one day i wana build a zoo :D randomness!
Bh am tired tapi Aku mau Se Xperia 1 or or n97. Huhu majal aku uh xp

regards to all, aslkum.

Dan aku akan terus...

2009-04-05T10:49:00.001-07:00

O shoot! its already 1.27am. im still wide awake.. No good! hmm.. Ooh am just so tired today.. woke up late.. Needed body massage badly.
Tadi ujan labat. Scaryy man. Ada banjir jua. Hmm.. And banyak urg got sick.. Fortunately am good.
Ohh.. i hate them so much.. Argh!! And excuse me, u dont pretend as if nothing has happened. Karma pays. U want a drama? Here's the drama.. I jst hate you, you and you!! what u did is unforgivable. Oh dont u ever dream am scared ov u.. Go to hell!

I seriously need a chill pill. And lady, am ok, alright.. still in one perfect piece. But i think am holdin too much grudge.. well, aint that bad though.. Grudge + rage + revenge : satisfaction. Huhu call me crazy now. antah eh. i dont believe the term 'rationality' anymore.
Oh to that person, i knew u were trying to do it your way, but please dont vex me again. am a human. sometimes am just too vulnerable and stubborn to think straight. so yeah.

Case closed and am out.

love, again.

2009-03-31T11:26:00.000-07:00

honestly im so emotional right now. Only god knows why..
*sighs* ok~ moving on.. l suddenly thought about love triangle issue.. whose fault is it really? will it ever peacefully work? Is it human nature to have more than one emotional partner(s) at one time? why does this happen? does it happen because ov lacking ov attention from one side, boredom or lust? Is he/she being unfaithful if he/she has more than one partner that know about it but treat them the same?
Well Personally, i think it will work depending on several factors which include :
@ understanding
@ honesty
@ compromise
@ high level ov trust
@ a lot ov patience
and the list goes on..
But til when it lasts, depends on the people themselves.
Its their choice and happiness.. So who are we to judge?

like a glass you break my heart.

2009-03-29T11:39:00.000-07:00

am not okay tonight. shit happened.

say to me things i wanna hear

2009-03-25T10:25:00.001-07:00

hmm its just so weird when some people have the guts to come and cry to us saying that theyve realised their mistakes, yadey yaadey yaaadey~ but on our back, they just wouldnt stop trying to make us suffer.. I wont shed a tear for these kind ov people really.. why? coz i know its USELESS and a waste o friggin time.. Yes!!
Anyhoo, i know i shouldnt hold tis grudge forever but i just cant help it.. Am prepared.. I know what i'll do if what i imagined ever happens .. Afterall, god is MORE POWERFUL and FAIR..
To lady: dont worry abt me.. I mish you. I mish going to skewl and waitin fo u.. Huhu good memories~~

unexpected news from her.

2009-03-24T11:07:00.001-07:00

despite ov all the tribulations ive been through, hers is even worse.. well, i must say the same reali.. BUT at least i learnt from past experience and she didnt unfortunately!
am talking about one ov my close friends.. As i see, life is like a piece ov clean white paper.. its us who should decide on how to paint and draw it w our own preferable colour, symbols, shapes etc.. whatever thats written or drawn will dictact our life literally.. In her case, she did it badly.. she had options but she chose to blow it.. i hope my poor gurl realisez her mistakes and learns to be responsible for what she did.. well, at least dont take things for granted..
All in all, her life is screwed!! Anyhoo, its already nearing april, i must find work and be independent! Just wish me the best ov luck guys.. And to lady, i salute u. Ure such a strong person. I just think i cant predict u anymore. seriously, who could sincerely laugh and stand on the ground not crying but feeling relieved when he/she just broke off? Huhu well, she did.. u did it!! Am jst wondering who u missing right now.. And mahal q??? I sense somethin fishy~~~ :] huhu is there somethin i should know about??

P.s i miss you, you, you & you..

my heart bleeds again :(

2009-03-20T11:18:00.000-07:00

I have had enough. I have done a lot! Now im so confused.. I dont know who to believe anymore. I know i should be optimistic but i bet there will be more dramas coming up soon.

NO!!

2009-03-18T19:27:00.000-07:00

I dont mumble or spit when i talk~ huhu random i know..
I dont have so much things to ramble here actually but as mentioned by dye on her latest post, there been a lot of self-accidents lately. Yes!! In fact i just witnessed one early tis morning whilst otw home from bandar.. it was scary.. Thank god am not really traumatized.. Oh before i leave, tonight i will be going to a friend's birtday party.. Hope theres food *duh~ of course there is* huhu i gained more fats.. :s
bh bh.. Assalam..

my hamsters DONT miawww~

2009-03-14T10:41:00.001-07:00

i never thought having a pet(s) is such a hard work. Really, trust me it is one hell ov a job *wipes tears*
now one ov my female hamsters gave birth to 7 litter ov pups again.. *lurus ka englis saya ne?*scratches head* not that am unhappy, but tis will mean i have more cages to clean. *screams out loud*
thank god My voice is still ok. *clears throat* Huhu cant help but to be dramatic here for a bit. anyhoo, ada urg mengigau dmlm. It was fudgin funny.. Mum told me.. NOT! Scary would be the right word. Erk!
Ok am sleepy already. I thought tis week dapat jmp the rejects but apparently no planner.. So nada~ well yeah, next week? *looks at em gurls*
bbye~

.... MIA

2009-03-13T10:57:00.001-07:00

Yes, i finally got my way back here.. i know u people missed me so much *perasan* huhu. wondering why i went m.i.a these past few weeks ?.. well actually ive been busy preparing things for my engagement ..................................................... *drum rolls* NOT!! *evil laughs* nada lah.. Meditating saja and thinkin of ways to get rid of hassles. Its like your house bh, the older it is, more renovation is required kan? so yeah.. am prepared..
Argh. I still havent got a job. No job means no dinero.. *sighs* being penniless sucks!! Random i know~ *change topic* Ok ok now i know the thing that am gona say will cause a rash to *laughs* and provoke some women/gurls out there but m jst so confused why most, but not all women plg, complain about inequality ov opportunity and sexism in workplace while in reality you see, there are more room ov opportunity for em. for instance: cd shops, they only hire female assistants and also in banks, its women that are more likely to get the interview or the job than men. Yes!! They tend to get job MORE easily than men NOWADAYS. Hmm.. Guess the world has changed huh? Afterall am jst unlucky, jobless guy whos wanting for a miracle to happen on one ov these days.. *wishful thought*

" sometimes revenge aint the sweetest thing you can do.. the time u took to hold a grudge, might have been the prefect time u could learn to forgive.. " - Harm '09

Hope to see my people soon esp lady, therejects and thee.. Tc.

Promises.

2009-03-07T22:07:00.001-08:00

I wonder why is it hard for some people to keep their promises?and is it fair to keep ours while the counterparts fail to keep theirs? Why do u say promises in the first place when u know that u wont be able to fulfil it?wait, are u even trying?
Is taking a break help to improve the relationship or will it blow it?why do u say those things when u actuali dont mean it and in the end regret it?why do u turn the table around at ur partner when things seem gotten worse?is breaking up the best idea u could ever think for the both ov u when its obvious the hassle can be eradicated?

sometimes....

2009-03-07T10:43:00.001-08:00

Yes! sometimes small matter can become gigantic to some due to lack ov compromising. Its like how one tiny cell collects another cells to eventually develop a whole complete organism.. But if the system lacks, then the development will be affected. Life sucks, definitely! we all should know that.
How i wish mine would be a lot simpler and easier. oh as if! Different people have uncommon solutions to overcome their problems. Some would say lousy things without thinking and regretin it in the end but the wise one always think deep before saying bad. So i learn from past experiences that decisions must be thought thoroughly, analysed and evaluated carefully coz we cant turn back time and that its easy to forgive but the scars will always remain...

what hurts the most

2009-03-07T06:41:00.001-08:00

when the person you love neglects u, chooses his/her friends over u in any kind of situations such as during ur weakest time, when he/she cannot handle his/her stresses or temper and uve got to bear w it so he/she can peacefully get over it..

sucks.

2009-03-01T08:40:00.001-08:00

I got so much things to ramble about in here. firstly, i love my hamsters and my baby rabbit, kiro. HAHA random i know~ secondly, i fleetingly hate some people. thirdly, i solemnly miss some people. fourthly, is it alright to be superstitious? should i wear an amulet o somethin to protect myself from any source of evil power? *faiz, ure needed to loose my puzzle-ness here. yes? HAHA since u commented on my 'love at first sight' post the other day so i thought u might as well comment on tis one also xp *
oh oh, lady, am so sorry that we couldnt make it to pantai muara yesterday. I knew u had a blast~
emm.. got lotsa things to be said here, but NOT that i run out ov time, its jst that i dont think its right to be amplified here. i got problems actually but... yeah shit happens... so, any queries just gimme me a hit.

bye, and seeya i dont wanabe ya~ xp

What u see aint always what u get :]

2009-02-22T19:54:00.000-08:00

Lady, i mish u too. Huhu

ezun, thanks.Yeah hopefully it will last long. I miss to hang out w the rejects. Eh eh, gez whud? I always tejumpa c zatil d tempat ny kaja. Huhu and shes got a bf dh. I saw em dating n she confessed to me jua. Huhu

ok ok, i must leave nw. I cnt help to miss many people.

fangs so muchy much!

2009-02-21T09:14:00.001-08:00

i appreciate the ipod nano, the baby rabbit *really cutely petite* the books oh everytin really. Hehe. Love ya.

'people dying and cryin to find one but you got two' = quoted by **5.

the fantasy is over.

2009-02-21T09:04:00.000-08:00

i miss you. spell my name correctly then i'll come to you.

Scr. Xoxo

love at first sight?

2009-02-17T08:46:00.001-08:00

do u believe in that? is it true that hatred can eventually change into love and otherwise?
why must it be a mutual consent? can we learn to love? why do we love when we know that in the end consquence is that we'll get hurt? why do we bother to put 101% effort when we know it will gone one day? why cant we understand or see love?so what makes it work? How do you know that your partner loves you oh-so-much?why do the butterfly feelings in your stomach occur everytime you and your partner are about to meet each other?is being understandin, responsible and committed, enough to keep the relationship safe?

well, i still love you regardless :) it might not show but just so you know its real.

am happy when ure happy :)

2009-02-17T08:26:00.001-08:00

i miss your face, i miss everytin about you.. i even miss the arguements that we wouldave from time to time..

i soo miss you.

a big show-off

2009-02-15T07:53:00.000-08:00

YES you are!

Thanks so much..

the new light in life.

2009-02-12T14:02:00.001-08:00

i reali think " me and my heart, we got issues " .. but thanks to u fo always been there fo me :) dont know how else to show my gratitude to you. Enough said, what have i been doin fo the past few weeks? well, nothing stink, nothing bad, just a straight-full-week hang out session. can u see how boring my life is a.t.m? Huhu. Emm, i reali need to get a job a.s.a.p
so yeah, been to icc's and ubd's exhibition meeting lotsa friends and acquaintances. I must say the programmes offered by ubd this year are phenomenal, quite interestin and challengin.. am delighted that they offer the so-called tuning program in each and every programmes. At least i will get the chance to being sent to abroad university, insyallah.
Oh, guess what happened on last wednesday? To make it brief, my sista asked a favour from me and mr panda to do her S.E.A assignment, so we did. We spent, though i only proofread everytin, literally 6hours doing it (from 7pm-12AM) fuhh.. It was reali tiring. I could see fractures in their backbones.. they were hairy and could also see their red teary eyes.. Oh wait! that was when they were about to change to lycans .. Huhu lame~ guess ive been watchin too much vamps n lycans movies xpp
anyhoo, all in seriousness, yatah when we were done doin it, the next task was to print the end product ( note: it was already 12+AM) so we went to the nearby cafe that we thought to be opened 247 but we were deceived. It was closed. Pfftt..
Then disappointed we went home to eat nasi katok. Gila~ lapar x uh.. Just before we open the nasi katok wrapper, my sis asked me to call lady if shes still awake and have a printer with ink to print her work. Persistent much. and i did, oh luckly, my savior, my lovely bestfriend picked up my call and Tadaaa~ she got ink! Huhu apakan? So yeah, we then went to her place. while sis and mr panda spendin their time printing the thingy majigies, lady and i had a time together, (bowh.. Pls be alert, and note that there were 4 ov us and we are innocent. Lol jk) i mean we had fun updatin each other w our life and her work stories. Hehe. Then around 2AM, everythin had been printed out so we went home. it was tiring. Sis you owe me big this time!!

Ok, am out.

P.s izun, huhu congrates. I think i know who the guy is. Karit you xpp

are u satisfied now?

2009-02-06T09:22:00.000-08:00

do you ever feel as if ure a destructive volcano thats about to erupt, engulf and kill whatever things infront ov you? Yes, am that angry now..

Specially Dedicated to you and ******.. Twit! the past has made me a stronger and a better person but it doesnt mean ure forgiven.

is it my mistakes?

2009-02-04T21:37:00.000-08:00

ammm sooooo bloody stressed rooight now~~

......................

i stayed up till late night YESTERDAY just to finish my ucas application BUT rupanya, the unis am applying to are not recommended.. arghhh!!! How screwed is that??

BUT, a big thank you to mr panda.. without you, i wouldnt be able to have a wonderfully winning p.s, though unfortunately it wont never be used :'[

ohh, just to share a bit of information, TODAY, 5th feb is a big day fer me.. huhuuuu vague i knoww~~ xp

i laff you..

am fine, thank you

2009-02-01T22:30:00.001-08:00

I can see u pretending. I can feel u mocking. Oh how could people change so drastically??
Today, i went to skewl. am so delighted that i could bumped into the complete rejects. Huhu. Apart from them, i also met fark, bubu, kelvin and the acquintances.. and I know lotsa students are tryin their luck to apply for scholarship. Emmm, i think i have to consider it.. Btw, gud luck yall *winks* god knows my post is boring, so just ignore it..
P.s am going to uk exhibition at rizqun later. Hope everytins fine.

Lack of Attention

2009-01-31T07:55:00.000-08:00

tonight somehow i feel like am just a dark shadow passing by you. If only you understand how deep it hurts.

.... the rise of lycans.

2009-01-27T08:00:00.001-08:00

My start ov the day was goin to the clinic w mr bear to get mc. Then had our late lunch at/in lemon grass restaurant. It was on him. Huhu I coulda sworn the food there was nice. The service is quite good too. After done filling up our stomachs, mr bear did dvdshoppin. I didn buy any dvds thou. But but i did buy gelato. Huhu. Then we went to the pet shop to see if hamsters are still sold or not. But there were none. Laku banar~ heran saya. So our next destination was the mall coz He wanted to eat waffles but we ended up eatin the sweet corn instead. Huhu selalu cematu. Sudah inda tercari. Anyhoo, Do u av any idea where we can find nyumilicious-finger-licking-good waffles in brunei? Mcm payah.. Emmm.. Then around 7+pm saya balek. Jalan again to mall w me sis n mr panda lapas atu.. Had our dinner at/in foodcourt. Oh btw, fyi its 11+pm already. Just got back home from watchin a movie w my sis n mr panda few mins ago.. Am so tired and my eyes soo need some shut down now BUTT i cant just as yet coz my annoyin bro is chattin w his fone that continuously produces this f*cking i-wont-let-u-sleep-well beep. Argh! I need a chill pill and tons ov sleeping pills urgent!!
Oh, exams results are freaking me out.. So yeah, am out.. Tc

"i wanna see n*ked pics already~" mr panda, 2009 lol

2009-01-21T22:22:00.001-08:00

i love my lil ebichu and chan.. they are literally my life now.. my mornings and nights are specially different now w em around.. *In case ov your curiousity, they are actually my HAMSTERS* huhu.
All in seriousness, as we know, its been raining heavily since last week leading to flood, blackouts and brownouts everywhere.. Really bad monsoon..
Anywho, i met ayen at/in supasave and apparently she works there. U go go gurl~ huhu. To ezun, if u really wana get the scholarship, u gotta redo the ps then. I know u can do it. To lady, cant believe ure nightmare became true.. Al-fatihah to ur late aunt. Oh btw, thanks for the tips.. Hehe.. To dye, come on gurl, update tah~~
ok ok, i wanna log out already. Tc guys.

Unagi.. ?

2009-01-18T10:36:00.000-08:00

You guys must be wonderin why i put that post.. Emm as said by mr panda, only F.R.I.E.N.D.S freaks will understand the 'unagi' jokes.. Lame~~ HAHA too bad i seldom watch it.. I only watch something that gives me inspiration.. For instance, emm.. *sensored* movies.. LOL
anywho, sorry fo the late updates. And due to laziness, i just wana keep tis post simple.. I actually had been here and there these past few days.. Done this and that also.. interestingly, am not lookin forward to exam results coz i know it wont be satisfyin anyway.. in fact, am just worried that i wont get the jobs am applyin for.. Oh btw, i finally got the hamsters *broad smile* and i love em so much.. They are so beautiful, though i sometimes got bitten by one of em.. Mean hams! Arrrrr
A big thank you to lady's cousin.. And good luck to those whos waitin fo exam results.. We will find it out soon enough..
" we live together, we die together " *walks away*
am out. Tc

Updates!!!!

2009-01-10T14:02:00.001-08:00

Thursday 01/08/2009

i was out w mr bear and blue. We went to hua ho manggis to get me lil sister a present for her birthday. My first option was to buy her a barbie doll but big sister forbade me so i had to go w my other option i.e buying me lil sis new pink clothes.. I bought her 5new pairs.. Huhu Yadey yadey yadey~~ had our dinner at/in wywy.. And then, went to bear's place to rest and sleep.

Friday 01/09/2009

i woke up real early and was surprised by lady.. Huhu. She told me tinkerbell skewl needs new employees and both ov us are applyin 4 it.. M reali hoping that il get it.. And and, panda got called for an interview at RBTS tis 12th.. Gud luck~ and of course, it was also my lil sis's 8th birthday~ huhu. Unlike last year, this year's celebration was held in a restaurant in gdg (i forgot what its called).. Only some cuzs n friends were invited thou.. It included si panda.. Huhu.. M glad that u werent feeling awkward that night *winks* anyhoo, the party was started w doa selamat recited by my uncle.. Then, apa lagi, dinner time.. Emmm, comments about the food? Not bad lah. Id say the sambal was nyummy.. The party ended at around 945pm kali then panda, sis and i went to the mall.. Sis went to summit to eye on her to-be new shoes.. Lawa lah the shoes that she picked.. Its purple.. Wicked.. Oh, we, out ov nowhere bumped into si blue and orange.. Huhu. Mental si panda tarus~ marah2 ya.. Then we decided to go home and panda slept over at me place.. It was a great day.. Really

Saturday 01/10/2009

i was out w bear around 4pm.. We went to pizza hut, mall. Huhu craving punya pasal.. *drools* then went jalan2. And suddenly, bumped into......... *i no need to mention here* oh the memories went back slicing every bits ov me.. I was out ov rage.. I could feel my hands shakin.. My brain was full ov curses.. Fuhh.. Luckily i was able to control it.. Enough said! Then i companied bear for groceries shopping. It was fun and tiring, of course.. Around 6+pm, went to a pet shop in lambak and buy my hamster food etc.. Yes! Yes! Finally, i will have a hamster.. Iam superexcited.. Come to me my baby~ huhu.. Moving on, lapas atu went to bear's place again to help him memanyap.. Then rest.. Around 9pm, the others dtg.. Chit chatted n had dinner w em.. Then, i went to bed.. Thats all..

Happy New Year 2009 Everyone~~

2009-01-03T13:33:00.001-08:00

*a round ov applause* 2008 had officially gone *exhales*.. It was the i-never-wanna-remember year to me.. I must get a grip n forget and delete all the pain, the misery etc..
i really hope 2009 will bring upon me happiness and most significantly new blessful life.. I wannbe a better person, get a job before i enter uni, work out and build some muscles, get a license and be a witch or murderer * lol, i just exaggerate the last bit xp *
anyhoo, u guys plant new year resolution(s) yet? Better be~~
bh.. Have a blast evryone.. Tc.

To eberibadi

2008-12-29T00:18:00.000-08:00

selamat menyambut ma'al hijrah 1430

Stay.. Please stay..

2008-12-28T11:37:00.001-08:00

My cousins from sabah came to our house and slept over here on sat night.. But i couldn stay long at home coz mr panda wanted to bring me lepak di gdg sekajap be4 i went to mr bear's place to have our, i think 7th movie night w the others..
Oh, panda n i went to Tk tea house restaurant that night. Seriously, those who hasnt gone there, should now go~~ asam mee nya marvellous brabis!!! *wipes drool* huhu oh food.. They make me happy ^_^
anyhu, i was somehow moody that night *oh he definitely knew why* so i asked hm to drive us to pantai jerudong.. As usual, mlm2 grenti ramai urg lepak sana. Nyaman bh d sea breeze. Hehe
then, around 11+pm panda sent me to bear's place.. I slept over there.. B4 tydo, sampat lagi maen ddr n makan fries w si orange and blue.. I woke up aher yesterday. Arnd 230pm id reckon.. Then mandi sana n headed off to ideal serusop, makan~~ huhu. Lapas atu arnd 430pm balik kerumah **
and yesterday, as in sunday, i didnt go nowhere coz yaknw, balik tadi 430pm jua. Yatah lalah. So yeah, all i did is just lying down my bed, freezin with air cond on, watch tv n had a lil chit chat w mum. Then i realised i left my home key in panda's car.. I informed hm abt it and yth arnd 9+pm tadi he came to me place n handed it to me.. I knew he was hungry, so i asked him to go inside my room and served hm mee goreng.. We had a real long talk w my sis jua.. He said he would try to fix my desktop. Oh thank u panda~ huhu
mmm.. Sorry readers, I got nothin left to type. am loggin off.. Tc

p.s i guess u people been wonderin y my posts usually include si panda, or bear ryte? Oh its simply because, other friends ov mine a.k.a you, yes you dear friends, do not want to jalan w me. Huhu sad.

Capers

2008-12-26T09:07:00.001-08:00

Yes, i had my dinner at/in capers.. But before that i went to mall gdg to company my friend to buy new contact lens but unfortunately the one he wanted got no stock so we wandered around sja then tjumpa c mr panda~ he was so sweaty * luan kmbng bh ea maen ddr yg double.. But man, i solute u.. U rawked! *
anyway, i also did some shopping. Huhu hey, boys also do shopping uh.. But but us dont normally admit it.. Hypocrite much.. Huhu. Ok ok.. All in seriousness, i bought, i think, 7new pair ov t-shirts.. Lawa~ di i-top, ego n giordano.. Hehe. Balum g pikir what to buy next.. emmm.. Oh wait, ada~ i.e nokia e71 *drools* but, il have to wait til alvl results is published.. And if its satisfying n good, il have it, i think? Huh, angan2 saja dulu.. So yeah, yadee yadee yadeey~ i was so hungry tadi..ngam jua di capers atu kan.. Dpt jua melayan nafsu mkn. Huhu then my friends n i went to mr bear man's place skjp n tadaaa~ am home udah. Yeah, we were there for half an hour only.. *yawns* am sleepy already.. Tc y'all

am out.

P.s you guys should watch bedtime stories.. Its very interestin n wicked!!

being w em doesnt make me as one ov em..

2008-12-22T11:01:00.001-08:00

had a quarrel w my bro today.. luckily mum n dad are cool about it.. i think *sighs*
i was grievin, and worried by the problem so i tagged along to gdg w sis n panda man.. Played ddr etc etc
my sis was being generous today and gave us $ to spend coz she had to leave and meet her friends at/in rizqun td.. Panda n i didnt knw where to go at first.. So he decided to buy fuel for his car then we headed off to seri mama restaurant in bandar.. Had our late dinner together there..
Arnd 1230am, baru tah my sis text suruh ambil ia di rizqun.so yeah~ tarus balik kerumah..
Anyhu, ezun, yes we shudn b takut to em *u knw wt am talkin about* and il try my best to be a gud teacher. Huhu. Gez i hav to hold on til d end of feb xp xp xp

p.s imy bestfriend(s) && semua lah..

Am out. Tc

Transformers

2008-12-21T11:22:00.001-08:00

Yes, am watchin transformers right now.. Huhu a wicked movie..
anyways, for the sake ov updating, i woke up real late today.. At 5.15pm. Accumulated tiredness bh.. I missed alot of i-should-have-done-things thou. Missed to watch agnes's so-called new drama : jelita on tv3.. planned to go to the beach but it was already late.. Arrgh~
i went out again today.. Had my late lunch at/in gdg w panda~ huhu then as usual, go to arcade and played ddr.. He played the double.. Im so impressed.. I tried but i sucked.. Huhu But both ov us got so intimidated by tis omg-pro-ddrist guys.. Expert bh.. Oh how i wish am really good at it..
Mmm.. Then, we met some friends.. Si jam jua~ *yes, i accidentally met her* we were bitching in the mall tadi. Huhu. Had so much fun. but too bad we couldnt stay long. Me n panda had to go to serusop to do sumtin.. So yeah.. Basically, i had so much fun today despite of the body ache..

Aight, m out.. Tc

thank god i found 'you' ~

2008-12-20T13:57:00.001-08:00

i went to ubd library w my sis n panda to search for a must-find-abreviation-book td ptg.. Luckily i.. ok ok, find~ WE.. Found it. *chuckles* oh I HATE the book keepers though.. Annoying brabis. All they did was non-stop talking. Arrrg..
Moving on to other topic, lapas dari ubd, we went to giant.. Makan kfc.. It was on my sis's treat.. Then talked.. And, talked.. Lama2, Out of boredom, we decided to wander around before being sent home.. Sis tried on some dresses.. Me teasing si panda.. Cari kan bras n tops utk ea.. Huhu sasak ya si awg panda uh xp xp xp *i know u'll be readin tis.. for sure u got a knife in ur hand dh ne.. Ryte? Huhu* and and, kami liat2 boxers tadi and.. it was weird and freaky that my sis is into boxers as well.. Wait, am confused~ does she just like to see guys wearing boxers or does she prefer herself to wear it? *bites thumb* Huhu. Owell, shes jst crazy i guess xp xp xp *again, i knw she'll be readin tis.. Oh pls throw that whip away~ huhu *
god, i should blame cadbury for boostin my hyperness.. Emm.. Then at night, before jln w si bear man, i did some typing.. And print my work arah si bear.. Huhu. And had movie night again~ btw, Siok jua ah bgi urg codenames ane xp xp xp
all in seriousness, to my bestfrnd lady, aww~ thats so sweet ov u.. No worries, wlau apa pun terjadi, kau lah sahabat sejati ku~ sorry if u tersinggung.. I knw am a bad-ass sometimes.. Hehe.. So yeah, gud luck w the dance thangy~ pls tc ov ur bones.. Krg patah mematah, pyh bejalan. Lol xp xp xp

oh oh, am out..

am sorry, but did i hurt u?

2008-12-19T10:06:00.001-08:00

Ive been afraid. Ive been a fool. I knew u needed me but i walked away. I refused to reach the ground and leave u sufferin. Am so sorry. But ive made my time for u tonight. Is the grief still there? Is it even enough? Am imperfect.. Sorry.
seeing u laugh indicates that ure okay. wait, are u really okay? I knew i shouldnt have left early but its the best for you, at least i thought.
You have been so nice to me..
what i did is just small compared to the sacrifices u made. So, i expect nothing as returns. I just hope my presence can calm ur sadness and ease ur misery..

Diarrhoea strikes again..

2008-12-17T13:59:00.001-08:00

Yes, ive been suffering from diarrhoea lately. And it kills my stomach again today. i think i should stop being too glutton-y.
emmm.. anyhu, i woke up at 130pm yesterday.. * i typed 'yesterday' bcoz its already thursday * .. and received texts from lady and si awg panda.. Huhu
after mndi n all, i got so bored so went on msn and chatted w dye and some other friends.. It was fun. dou only for one hour x coz d connection wass being bitchy.. Then after being disconnected from msn, i just watched tv. then si awg panda * huhu.. Majal jua kan menaip panda atu uh * called me up n asked f i wana join hm to go to his sis's place.. And i said yes pasal i was hungry jua. So he got me my fav nasi katok mama *smiles ear-to-ear* btw.. Fyi, Idk why lately i lost my appetite.. Will only munch food f jalan.. Mmmm.. If tis prolongs, grenti saya kurus lagi ney like the old times.. Arrr
Anyway, hopefully, i will get job offers by january.. I wanna make money and spend it like crazy. Huhu. Oh oh i miss my friends.. That also includes u readers * ehem.. I reckon tis blog o' mine is only bein read by my pals roight? o.^ * booya stalkers, booya! Buzz off.. Ure presence is unwelcomed here.. Huhu meanie me..
Mmhm.. To si 03/5 : i knw dec is a hell month to u, but hey.. Chin up! Uve got me.. Moved on and be happy~
oh im so lethargic n drowsy now.. Need to get my beauty sleep as of now..
Thanks for readin. Tc

I wanna have your babies~ Hahah.

2008-12-15T11:55:00.001-08:00

*clears throat* pls ignore te post title.. M just bein random *chuckles*
anywho, today is my friend's 25th birthday.. *mls ku kan buat greet lagi.. Dah bgi adiah n msg.. Huhu* yatah.. Menunggu kana lanja makan lagi.. Hehe..
Mhmmm.. moving on other topic, aku nyamal tadi.. *i hate waiting* huhu. I know sekadar.. But am ok nw..
Eh b4 i 4got, congrates 2my bstfrnd, lady.. Gud luck 4 d test and hopefully u will get the job and do belanja me udah terima xp xp xp hehs.
anyways, tadi i went out and many thing happened.. *malaskan ceta* and got home at arnd 230am or so..
Oh i miss all my friends *sobs* pls buzz me up whenever u guys are free ayte..
Bah, aku inda tau kan buat apa lagi.. Wanna log off and sleepp~~

alright, tc.

I am gona be a tuition teacher??

2008-12-09T17:08:00.001-08:00

I had an interview w ring rose tuition school's principal yesterday.. Was given a test jua.. It went pretty good though..
I must admit that i were petrified at first.. But nasib jua the principal was friendly.. She flipped thru my cv n all my certificates.. And yeah, i think i got accepted.. Huhu.. First time interview and first job (hopefully i can go thru tis)
takut jua coz il be teachin malay di sana (apparently, the other subjects that am capable ov teaching sudah ada tutors)
buttt.. The principal told me, amongst all the other subjects, malay yg kana byr tinggi.. Two sessions per week and it costs $150.. Which means il be earnin at least $600 a month.. it wil b my part-time.. Huhu promising plg.. But the main problem is that, not only that i have to teach them basics but also anytin, everytin about brunei.. (pls note that it includes all the brunei history, adat istiadat, bahasa brunei and bahasa dalam etc etc.. Which i dont know much really *bites tongue*)
arrr~~ its really complicated and i even almost had a stroke when d principal told me what id had to do.. *long sighs* that means i av to belajar lagi and il be teachin non-bruneian ADULTS who wish to sit for the citizenship exams.. Even worse.. I got no experience in hand, must do lesson plans, research, buy alot ov teachin materials and whatnot.. Ohh~ am i ready 4 all of this? I dont know~~ *gulps*
so yeah.. Lapas interview, called c awg panda *laughs* and jalan th kmi ke wywy jmp kwns. Hehe. Then balik umah jap, ambil my key and talked to mum n dad abt my intrview then zoomed ke gdg. Maen ddr.. Hehe release kn tension.. Pastu ke tamu selera.. And d final destination was kumah c panda.. Lmao.. Slept over di sana.. Huhu
mmm thats all.. Owait.. Its 10th dec panya.. Tonyt is d nyte that am supposed to join me friends ke jp.. Mmm.. Should i go???

are they gona delay it?

2008-12-07T21:04:00.000-08:00

Hey people,
yesterday i eventually went to gdg w me bstfrnd n her bf after quite long *smiles from ear-to-ear* though i came late coz was waitin from my friend jua..
Anywho, as usual, kami kbox-ing.. Hehe. 8songs altogether.. Bnr2 wah.. But sorry uh coz i had to leave early..
Emmm.. To me soldier gurl aka dye, do u knw that iam also invited to jp atu kah? Hehe. Il dress up pretty 4 u baby~ lmao. Erma invited me.. But i aint sure f i got transport.. So yeah.. Eh eh, congrates eh kna call up udah~ where did u send ur cv to btw? Pvt co? Btw, insyallah, ambil license a.s.a.p~~ *depends on my parents dou. With no license, sama jua i seldom drumah. So it will be even worse if i hav one. Huhu. they did say abt that plg.. Hopefuli they aint gna delay it.. Takut~*
*sniffs* wait~ *diverting the topic* i tried to call the tuition skewl that shirley suggested just now, but guess drg cuti jua x hari raya ane.. Huhu. Dont know what else to type now.. I'll just sign off then.. Tc..

P.s thanks 4 d hang out bestfrnd :) and to the rejects, when are we gona have our next hang out? I miss my friends bh~ :/

'date'

2008-12-06T14:03:00.000-08:00

Its 5.47am and am up bcoz my room is so polar-chilly *shivering* anywho, am supposed to have a 'date' w my bestfriend later *sniff* but beb, m indecisive atm.. To go or not to go.. But but i wanna hear the updates :( u jadi kah? Il make up my mind later *looking at my thin-cashless wallet* gahh~ need dad~~ hehs..
Oh i almost forgot, ive been busy attending functions n hang-out sessions lately.. Mum's been asking over n over again abt when m gona apply for a job.. Well, i did already w help frm few friends.. Thanks alot guys *hi-5* yatah now m longing for an interview..
Back to my updates, i suffered from diarrhoea tadi.. Too much bbq chics.. Huhu nyaman bh.. Cant help it *wipes smears* oh oh.. I miss the rejects (do we sound sad?) huhu whens our next hang out session? A.s.a.p pleash? Dye, sadang th kan ke miri saja ane.. get ur license atu a.s.a.p and bring the rejects out~ lets cruise brunei ane *lmao* we go to mall, kiulap, yayasan.. Then, emmm.. Mall, kiulap, yayasan.. *checking my list* And emm.. Mall, kiulap and yayasan again.. Omg.. Di mana lagi kan? Huhu
mmmmm.. M sleepy now.. So yeah, farewell~ wait 4 more updates..

Panda man vs Mr bear laughs

2008-11-28T16:11:00.001-08:00

Ok.. Its 29th nov.. N am supposed to go to pte tis morning but due to some complications, i cant make it.. ( sorry to izun )
oh yeah lady, yawah tcha isma is more friendly now? Oh god.. Missing her already.. Lol n cg zaus? *scratches head* why do u have to talk to him? Huhu meanie me.. Anyways, yesterday i went to gdg accompanyin me friend buying his brother a burfday prezie.. After awhile, tjmp the other clique.. So yeah, we joined em.. Had lotsa fun although the flirtin part seemed so overly too much ( huhu hopefully they dont read tis xp ) oh also, i accidently met fakrul, abu n muiz.. Only Had a short chit chat w em coz they had to go to watch bolt ( gahh.. Wana watch it also *sobs* )
mmm.. Then arnd 8pm, i had to leave to kiulap mall w panda man to buy prezie for mr bear ( huhu.. Byk jua gelaran drg ane xp xp xp ) so yeah.. Bought him a 212 latest perfume.. Then lepak-ed at our friend's place 4 a good 2 hours ( i think ) pas atu baleekkk.. ( i think again~ xp xp xp bnr kan? Yeah roight ) huhu
bh bh ngaleh ku becerita uh.. Hehe tc readers *blows kisses*

p.s ezun n dye, walaupun saya jarang membuat post dlm rejects blog tapi saya selalu membca blog itu.. Huhu so yeah xp xp xp updates~~~

my day

2008-11-27T15:22:00.001-08:00

3pm : woke up ( aher ku bgun uh.. huhu maklum lah cuti skulah.. so jd bestfnd balik w my bed. )
3.05pm : washed up. Then went to the kitchen n had a cup ov hot tea.
3.15pm : watchn tv, msging n misscallin me friends..
3.20pm : received a txt fm me friend, commandin me to shower n cmpany hm to go to kiulap..
3.25pm : rushed to the toilet..
3.50pm : finished shower. Udah Dressed up..
4pm : received mc.. indicatin that my friend has arrived. Went downstairs.. N Got into the car..
4.20Pm : arrived in kiulap. Talked w random people..
5pm : went to hua ho kiulap
5.30Pm : went to capers.. Mkn buffet.. Huhu knyg brabis
7pm : done eatin.. thinkin of where to go
7.15pm : final decision made.. We all went to kiulap mall. First destination was winmark ( pls note that i reali fancy perfumes.. so yeah.. )
7.30pm : went to the arcade, playing ddr.. Tiring yet fun..
8.15pm : done w arcade.. Bought two cans of drinks n ran to the car.. It rained heavily.. nsib jua inda damam..
8.35pm : arrived at my friends place.. Had our dvd night after so long..
10.20pm : was drowsy n fell asleep..
4.25Am : woke up n went home ( yes.. I usually got home late. Hehe )

thats my day.. Huhu.. Will update later.. Regards.

My sudden come back :)

2008-11-26T16:46:00.001-08:00

Miigaaddd! *wipes tears* batah sudah eh.. M back people~~ *runs around n leaps* huhu over jua eh..
Anyhu, i read rejects blog just now.. Oh gawdh.. Im so touched guys.. *wipes tears* izun n dye are always the loyal post-ers.. U guys deserve to win d grammy awards. Lol. Pemalas bh aku uh.. Yeah yeah.. U guys can bitchslap me now xp *cute face* lmao huns, awu exam abis sudah.. *blows kisses to the world* Lets find job together.. And to izun, if u want my cv, buzz me up ja ayy..
Dye, i read ur blog jua tadi.. *laughs* congrates uh dpt anugerah uh. *berdiri beside u and ikut bgi ucapan jua* hehe. Arghhh.. I hate tis feelings.. I miss u guys already!!! Uwa uwa uwa..
*sniffs* oh not 4gettin my dearest bestfriend, lady.. Congrates sal dpt kaja uh.. I miss u to d max jua.. I knw we havent met n talked much since the exams started but so u know, saya akan selalu ada untuk awak (cewah~ cana? Pass malay ku ane? Hehe)
mmmhm.. Apa g uh? My life updates? Been busy.. Revitalising.. Upgrading my body system.. Huhu what tha fudge? Xp
am happy though.. Realising that people out there, other than me family, are concerned about my wellbeing.. Thanks alot.. Oh yeah, i went out last nite.. Surveyin a bday present 4 someone.. But havent found anytn yet.. Well, knew the hinted thang but unfortunately the shop has no more stock ov it.. So, then i went to kuminis w panda man (huhu i know u'll b readin tis panda.. Pls dont hate me.. Lol) balikn me frnd cd irwansyah.. Huhu.. Then went to his place and liat ceta mirror.. Spooky eh d ceta.. After that, arnd 11pm, went to panda's sister's place.. And i slept over :) abis bamboo stick kami makan.. Lol jk..
i have so much to say here.. But too tired to type.. (told u am a lazy bum) bh tc n enjoy ur hols people.. More updates later :D

p.s aku mauuu ke capers~~ and ive been cravin for lamb chop.. Huhu pasal makan, numbur satu xp xp xp

instability

2008-10-27T04:48:00.001-07:00

am currently very drowsy, weak and emotional.. Cant even concentrate revising..
and the weather has been rather sickening.. everythin seems so wrong to me.. why?? *sighs* oh.. give me strength..

Night at the museum..

2008-10-16T22:40:00.001-07:00

its 17th oct.. a very close friend of mine, n.mizah aka honey has finally grown another one year older today.. happy birthday to u dear.. AND a belated birthday to ezul too..

..... New updates? .....

alot plg .. but am a lazy bum.. mls kan becerita.. huhu Anyway, Tis blog will be temporarily dead due to exams til the end of november..

alright, thanks. regards to readers

Harm's back.... and moved on :)

2008-10-08T02:23:00.001-07:00

Ok people, im superbored now. So i think, i should get back to my past habit i.e blogging. I will try not to whine about the past pulang coz its better to let the bygone be bygone. As y'all know, ive been through alot of dramatic shits and whatnot.. In fact last night jugak. Huhu life aint always fair, eh? But hey ive thought i should move on now..
So yeah, pardon me for the few-months-blog-breaks.. btw b4 i forget, its nt too late to say selamat hari raya aight? And thanks for your loyalty .. for reading my kinda-dead blog. My hari raya is as usually boring. But i must admit i do have fun raya-ing out w few new friends and sistas. Hehe tapi kan~~ Oh nvm..
I just revised geo actually *tryna divert the topic* however got so tired so i stopped *alasan bnr jua toh* xp huhu oh i really miss therejects, my bestfriends and few-people-whose-names-not-to-be-disclosed-here :)
&& i didnt go to skewl today coz i was drowsy. Dmlm bh lepak. Yatah.
A level is really freakin me out.. *boring jua topic ane.. sigh.. bt gotta bring it up to remind myself* Inda lagi lama.. *screams* eh m solemnly craving for spags, pizzas, sushis, salads and ice creams.. Uwa uwa uwa.. When can i eat these food??
*sniffs* ok m being random just now.. Dont mind me..*making cute facial expression* Apa lagi uh?? *thinkin*biting me finger nails* gahh.. cant think straight now.. Bh na buleh dpksa neh.. huhu. Il blog kalau ada free time again.. vove ya guys.. *pokes*

New E71

2008-09-17T12:27:00.001-07:00

Hallo peeps xp *waiting for sahur*lookin at me watch* oh..
what should i blog abt yeah? Mmm..*lookin at particular people* i had my sungkai at red chilli today. Was gonna have it di farm basket then fully booked. Tried making reservation di rizqun & fully booked again! So the option td was red chili aje. Huhu. Nyummy! After that, around 730 or so, went to mall gdg, dgni someone shopping. It was amounted about $3++ *eyes widened* then kami survey hps. I got attracted (captivated) to nokia E71. God! Get one for me! Huhu well, il surely get it soon!! Anywys, saya hendak bersahur dulu. Oh wait, i was given new perfume g frm faceshop. Am so flattered! Huhu sniff sniff.

its my birthday..

2008-09-15T11:28:00.000-07:00

*wipes tears* hy everybody. Am already officially 19years old tis year *jumps excitedly* huhu still young though *stares at the sky and stars* Am super delighted to receive piles and tons of sweet, hilarious and (critical) birthday greetings, doa(s) and prezies from alot ov wonderful and thoughtful people *sobs* solemnly, thanks for the sweet attentions.
Oh should i mention what happened during my birthday? should i, u think?neah~ nvm.. all i can say is that ive got both sweet and lousy memories on that lovely day.. that didnt undermine the joy-ment i felt at all. Huhu *ada kah noun atu?* who cares~
so yeah, early tis morning, while was otw to skewl, i won myself a free sungkai buffet from pilihan fm. Huhu that was so amusing. It lightened up my day pretty well. As shirley said, i got so 'nasty' when it comes to food. Huhu well, its true plg. But tell me, who doesnt love food? I believe everyone does, yes? Huhu Mmhm.. I only hanged out w lady n shirley bfore i went home tadi coz ezun was busy w her gf alaina *laughs* && my funny flirtatious sexy Intelligent soldier gurl ie dye didnt go to skewl jua *stalks her in her bedroom quietly* woo~ i saw somethin. Lol jk jk.
Oh gosh! My friend told me about tis one particular rumour tadi. Huhu unbelievable brabis. But sorry, not to be mentioned here. Huhu controversial really.
Apa lagi uh? Oh yes, got my report mock exam card and apparently my results aint satisfyin and disappointin all ov my tutors. But nvm.. It drives me to do better for later exams. No worries people, i mean teachers, godwill i will study smart and get u the A's u expected! I will break a leg (literally) *inspirational song playing* huhu
mmm.. Oh i think i should get my eyes shut now. They've been widely opened since sungkai dh. Sorry eyes. Wtf? Am so lame~~~ *runs around like a lunatic*need help immediately* i need a sleeping pill!!

P.s thanks again to all my caring family and buddies. Love love.

Its 14th

2008-09-12T13:21:00.001-07:00

*coughs* m back. Hehe. Ok ive jst got my sahur. Nw its 3.55am, sept 13th, the 12th ramadhan sudah. been reading new posts frm my buddies so terbuka lah hati ini utk mengupdate.. Kekekeke
Alright, b4 i talk abt myslf, lemme jst say a belated happy bday to ell *hi 5* kami both are sept babies.. Hehe to the rejects, izun.. your wishes are granted! *jadi bomoh and grins* sue me frm my lameness~ huhu && to my soldier gurl, dye, yes! we MUST go sungkai luar together ONE FREAKIN DAY. I suggest awal dtg la.like at 2pm?we go watch movie then sungkai k?have fun together jua nt jst eat together. Hehe i know thats our specialty~ and the main reason why ivnt been updatin is bcz iv bfriended not just w book but food also *laughs* huh!! I had steamboat yesterday. Nyumm~*wiping me drool* btw, our blog mcm temporarily dead. Il see f i cn post sometin there shortly.. Eh dye, which number am i in on ur 10 best-people-in-your-life chart uh? *julur* am i even included?hehe..
mmm..my birthday is tmrow *paused*.. and today, as in 13th sept, am nt goin to skewl simply bcz i dnt av a company msa di surau atu nanti :'( ya'knw why~
back to my birthday story, gahh.. my cuzy ada tahlil dumah nya. so basically i cnt go out. Uwa uwa uwa.. M stuck w the lame selfish crowds again.. Seriously, they are so i-do-my-thang-and-u-do-yur-thang types.. Oh i wish am invisible.. Huhuhu not.. I miss my bstfrnd, lady.. And i like the sand pictures.. Creative much.. Although u didnt make it.. *mean laugh* f uve got me sumtin for my bday, msg lu uh f wna give it to me.. Coz m sungkai-ing out later and esuk definitely am nt home. So.. The choice is only on the 15th. Huhu apakan.. Mcm expecting sumtin jua toh xp well, just in case saja. Hehehehe
oh my revision is absolutely in perfect progress.. but business studies alum revise.. *sighs* ive lost interest and hope.. Mybe bcz ov the self-fulfilling prophecy.. Si tutor atu suka merendah2kn students nya bh.. thats why.. F there happens to be an award for unproffessional teacher, it will definitely be given to h**.. Huhuhu no kidding.. an old ****h.. Ok stop~ gtg now.. Squeeze ya.. Love

tanda-tanda (masih) dicintai. Haha

2008-09-06T10:50:00.000-07:00

1. apabila si dia sanggup mengalah walaupun dia jenis yg keras kepala tetapi kerana cinta, hati yg keras pun boleh lebur jadinya. (HAHAHA bnr?)

2. apabila si dia, semasa memandu cuba untuk memberi sepenuh perhatian dengan pemanduaannya tetapi matanya masih melirik sang kekasih yg duduk di sebelahnya. (mhmm.. Mcm kenal ja..)

3.apabila si dia mahu membeli atau memakai baju warna yg sama berdua. (ani yg susah ni. Kalau nada size bh. Payah neh.)

4. apabila si dia sanggup membelanjakan duit demi si cinta walaupun semasa dia mengalami krisis kewangan yang teruk (mmhm..baik tah save dulu. Huhu. Apakn.)

5. apabila si dia mempelawa untuk menyaksikan filem berdua kerana mahu menghabiskan kualiti masa bersama. (awu.. walaupun midnite, sgup bh ne..hehe)

6. apabila si dia mahu berkongsi makanan atau minuman walaupn dia sebenarnya geli dan tidak biasa berbuat demikian (huhu.. Ane tahan saja cha..janji inda membuat si dia menyamal. Huhu)

7. apabila si dia selalu menghantar pesanan ringkas atau 'sms' dan membuat panggilan untuk memastikan si cinta mengingati dan merinduinya. (awu yth kn..p pyh ne jua..huhu.mbri sanak bh jua terutama bgi sesetgh urg yg inda suka mengupdate..udah di tnya bru tia kan membgitau. Tsk tsk tsk)

8. apabila si dia sanggup meluangkan masa untuk berjumpa walaupun dia sibuk, rumah jauh ataupun mengalami masalah transportasi. (mhmm..yth kan..kdg2 ada jua urg,walaupun rumah jauh,sgup bh drive laju2 kn jmp si cinta nya.buleh smpai lam few mins ja..manis eh..)

9. apabila si dia sanggup mengabaikan tanggungjawabnya, keluarga dan kerjanya semata-mata untuk si cinta nya. (mhmm..ani merbahaya jua ne.buleh plg cemani.tapi jgn diamalkn selalu.hehe)

10. apabila si dia,walaupun sudah tidak bersama lagi sanggup menunggu untuk peluang yg kedua untuk bersama semula (ani hnya utk urg yg bnr2 pecaya yg perasaan kasih syg drg atu msih wujud.ehem2..) huhu

thanks dye and ezun :)

2008-09-05T12:24:00.001-07:00

Oh.. *wiping me tears* i feel so appreciated after readin dye's and ezun's blogs just now.. Oh these two gurls are the craziest yet smartest gurlfriends ive ever had.. Oh without you two im an innocent man. Lol
oh dye, hopefully u'll get the scholarship and leave us? Nooooooo!!! Oh its so depressing.. But oh. We have to let go of u *omg.. Im so emo*
and ezun, *wiping me tears again* thanks for the advanced bday greetings and the compliments yeah *hugs tightly* and yeah~ therejects power!! Huhu lameo.
Lets do our bestes tis Alevel and go abroad together yes? Hehe. Sorry inda terupdate therejects blog. Well, it was sharons idea to set up the blog so patutnya ia yg selalu update..hmmmphh.. That gurl~ sooo typical.. i dont wana be racist.. But, ehh... Huhuhu jk
bh see u people in skewl *only applied to my skewlmates btw* hehe. Grrrrr.

wywy yesterday and Charcoal on sund? :)

2008-09-04T11:46:00.001-07:00

Ok people, its 2.33am right now.. Am already drowsy yet dont wana go to bed as of now. Wanna wait til sahur time.. Mmhmm.. I read some peoples blogs few mins ago.. To lady, yeah i noticed that u changed ur blog layout. Dou i cnt reali view it completely but it seems so attractive, colourful and nice :)
to dye.. Oh.. Pity u.. Damam? Huhu bnr toh eh. In anytime u can make the tissue industry jadi kaya. Lol. Good that u spent ur time updating the rejects blog. Sorry na teupdate coz all ov us are nw concentrating on alvl.wana go abroad w u bh. Hehe Weve been missing u soon-to-be soldier women! Huhu remember the destinys child song that i sang for u? Xp and i reali wonder who caused your sickness? *raises eyebrow* huhu and and happy fasting to everybody! Btw, b4 i forgot, i went to kiulap tadi and bought slippers for raya and pairs ov new baju jalan.. Hehe. And went sungkai di wywy lambak tadi. Only $4 per head.. The food was ok lah~ but some places are better plg. And tis sund i will be sungkai-ing at CHARCOAL~~ *Jumps excitedly and falls* opps.. Jgn jeles. Wawawawawawa. Bh bh thats all. Grab u later~

First day of tuition.

2008-09-03T03:10:00.001-07:00

okay am bored now. And i think am losing weight. Huhu random. Its a must-do thing though :)
oh yeah todays my first tuition. Got lost tadi yatah i arrived kinda late. Then just right after i got in, kana suruh buat test tarus. Huhu wasnt really prepared. so, i just antam ja. Balik around 4+pm. Hujan~
Apa lagi uh? Oh oh.. I almost forgot that got 11 more days left til my birthday. I dont expect anything fancy, but just a sungkai treat saja? Huhu. Jk.. Not.. :p To lady, i know uve been asking what i want for my birthday. Jgn th susah2. Janji ikhlas apa saja saya terima :)
btw ive taken my baju raya from the tailor shop. They fit me well. Thank god. Or else i need to readjust it lagi. Mmmm.. I wonder when will the study leaves be held. Ngaleh bh skulah masa puasa ane.. 0.o'
Oh i read someone's blog just now. I actually want to comment on his latest post but malas lah.. Lalalala~ bh gtg now.. Later need to go to masjid. And revise again~ huhu bye people.

First day.

2008-09-02T02:47:00.001-07:00

Mmhm.. I woke up late today. Around 1pm kali then tydo balik. Huhu. My head hurts as if i was hit by a massive rock.
Yeah.. Todays the first day of ramadhan.. I heard today's sungkai will be at 6.27pm. Oh. Cant wait really. Gastrict udah bh. I revised socio just now. Ani m jst lying on my bed n tunggu sungkai. Later tonight insyallah smbyg terawih di masjid. Hehe. Then revise lagi. Seriously, ive become an official geek sudah *winks* AND am proud of it. Hehe
i miss to read peoples updates esp ehem.. U know who u are.. And and my bestprens update juga the rejects.. Busy bnr bh inda g drg teupdate..
Bh bh.. I need to explain something to my sis dulu. And btw, i have socio test tmrw. Hopefully i can do it. Bh tc people. Selamat berpuasa~ *waves*

Happy Ramadhan :)

2008-09-01T12:55:00.000-07:00

wee~~ its the first day of ramadhan.. happy fasting people.. Oh i didnt sleep dari tadi since i woke up frm the afternoon nap.. i went to gdg dgni someone shopping cikit td arnd 7.30pm. Then went to McD. Dinner. Meeting and saw a few friends . Got hme by 1am and tarus continued doing my socio revision. Ehem, lapas mndy n tukar baju plg tuh. Huhu. And my official first sahur is at 3.30am just now. my head is spinny udah. Need to get some sleep now. Tc y'all. Love.

shuweef and mr snowman

2008-08-31T15:23:00.000-07:00

These guys are B.I.T.C.H.Y~ and and i was curious abt the love note thang for like what, couple hours only? Huhu i have life xuh~ it didnt affect me as much. Buuuuuu~ lmao.

M away for good

2008-08-26T03:44:00.000-07:00

Ok first and foremost, lady, i know u wil awes be there for me. Hehe. Sorry i didnt go to skewl today.
Am unwell actually. Been coughing since two days ago.. But no worries, it aint that worse..
Mm.. Sir hadi ada every mondays! Yay! *winks at dye n ezun* oh wait, im suppossed to be grieving now coz i got D for my sociology mock exam. M so disappointed of myself. I know i cudve done better..in fact, way way better.. Sir hadi scolded me coz of my disappointin june n mock exam results.
I know i should not study superficially. I must strive for better results and revise constantly but at the same time try to maintain a healthy condition.. I know i can do it.. I just need to push it to the sky and i need support also.. So yeah now y'all know why i seldom update my bloggie.. Am busy re organising n re doing my personal notes. Wish me luck w alvel and pray for my success. Thanks people.

Emo?

2008-08-24T10:16:00.000-07:00

I realised that ive been cruel to people in yesteryears.. i admit sometimes iam selfish and this leads some of my friends to hating and backstabbing me.. i know i strongly deserve it but please give me a room to breathe the air and change whats painted.. i was solemnly disappointed when i found a used-to-be-closed-friend of mine made fun of my june results. Although it was indirectly but the impact of that was really huge on me.. I started to hate and honestly i lose trust to that person. I mean, who would do that to a friend who've had goin through your thicks and thins together? Tell me if ive chosen a lunatic as a friend. what, then, makes a GOOD friend? I soo dont understand people nowadays. they will simply go to u when they desperately want a hand but then they'll leave u strayed when u are thought to be useless in just a blink of eye. seriously such experience is so heart breaking and it is apparently in the top of my must-avoid list..
However.. I can not deny that i still have quite a number of true friends who are not, as i know of, 'talam dua muka'. I really appreciate the unbiased support although i might cause messes here and there but i know that will not change bits of your love for me, yes?yes? i know am so hard to tolerate.. but u guys manage to tame me.. ive grown to be a better person now.. and i know whats there to take and whats to throw.. thanks alot.. Btw Ive been thinkin abt someone lately.. This person was so special to me back then but now we pact up to be so-called friends. I know i was being cruel to tis person then. Most of the time now, anytime i listen to our songs i felt so guilty and honestly i regret that i left you. How i wish i could turn back time. but things happened.. we have to move on for the betterment of ourselves.. I just hope am not forgotten and can still win the heart one day..
Alright, time to go..

it means extra hard work

2008-08-21T19:40:00.001-07:00

Mmm.. Results were already out yesterday.. Guess what i got? I scored C's fer business and geo and a sad E fer socio *sighs* the rejects also scored pretty bad results except for miss dye..she rocks! Got straight A's fer business, psycho and socio and a B fer gp, C fer eas *hunny, m typing tis down just to remind me again that ure the smartest among us x) *

i cant afford to lie..am actually super sad and disappointed w what ive got. well, iam grateful plg..at least no U there..but.. Huhu theres always but's.. now i realised that Alevel is demandin and that efforts must be doubled to get what i want i.e scholarship..i need to make the books as my bestfriends from now on..

Oh idk whatever else i wanna type here.. Just, a big congrates to my fellows who've gotten better or satisfying results than me :') seriously i cant wait fer the study leave..wana start doing revision by then..

Mmm..owell, let past be the lesson, and move on is the best remedy.. Alright, squeeze ya later x)

my 10 fav love songs..

2008-08-20T09:31:00.001-07:00

* thank god i found you
* i'll be there
* timeless
* i'll light a candle
* dangerously in love
* all over again
* love to be loved
* if you were mine
* always be my baby
* i stay in love

corny? Deal w it.

happy being-grown-ups day to ezun and farky :)

2008-08-20T09:23:00.001-07:00

Oh oh its 21st august already.. Hehe a big day fer two ov my closed friends i.e ezun the reject, and farky..

As usual, i sent them burfday mms-es.. Hope it reaches em and makes em smile.. You guys have entered the mysterious adult world now.. So behave maturely and jgn lupa diri.. Exams are ahead ov us.. Hehe puasa and also hari raya.. Get ur license a.s.a.p n cruise w me.. Hehe.. Bh thats all..

Love.. Xoxo

......... simply you ...........

2008-08-18T09:34:00.000-07:00

Mmm.. Its 1230am at the moment.. am still wide awake.. Intended to talk w someone on the phone but no green light was given.. so i end up grieving and watchin tv..
A heap ov things linger on my mind.. the disappointment from the stupid rumours and from the heart ache..
Oh lord.. my mood is tilted unstably now.. mybe im just tired? No cant be.. i can be emo at any random times.. I hate tis feelings but what can i do?
I want to write on all the bricks 'I MISS U' and i wish that one falls on your head so that you know how it hurts when you miss someone special like you..
love is intangible.. You can feel it but you cant see it.. But as u become obsessed w each other, u can see that love is like flower. It needs to be watered every single day. It wilts if no proper care is given.. True.. oh i wish i can have you..
Adui.. Ini semua merepek.. Huhu am being corny.. Oh who cares.. Tis is my blog.. Idc if u dont buy me.. Tis is how i expressed my feelings.. Reject it, well not my loss.. I dont bother coz the feeling is true.. Mmm.. Time to remain silent now.. Gtg people..

P.s i catch people's attention bcz i love them but if one day u realise i stop, then you know the drill.. A farewell..

almost got lost..

2008-08-17T18:39:00.000-07:00

Ok.. I dont know what to blog now.. Hopefully tis post can be posted.. The reason why i was lackin ov updates is due to the bad connection.. Huhu
anyways, my leg is so sakit now.. Went to bukit shahbndr arnd 5+pm with my sis n two brothers. It was siok bt my two brothers suddnly disappeared n left my sis n i way behind ov em.. I tot my sis knew the way. As we gone further and far.. I asked her tau kah inda where to head to coz we kind lost the people..imagine kami dua saja..wuuu~scary.. Then kami just follow the shoeprints and finally ada tis chinese man tny whether we were lost or not. Yeah we were kinda.. Huhu nasib jua ada ea.. Then we got our way to the car park. Slamat~ huhuhu~
on last friday, another so-called lonely nite for me.. I was alone while waiting for my sis keluar frm d cinema. Were there frm 7pm til 10+pm. Imagine how long i waited for her.. 2+hours long mann.. Crazy! I kbox, ddr n ate alone.. Huhu i felt so left out.. Bt nvm.. At least i SURVIVED.. Lol
oh yeah btw, myb results kuar today.. M nt putting my hopes high but hopefully ada. Im expecting gud grades f not, im dead.. Huhu alright.. I shall stop now.. Tc people :)

I will be :)

2008-08-10T22:30:00.001-07:00

There's nothing i could say to you,
nothing i could ever do to make you see,
what u mean to me,
all the pain,the tears i cried,
still u never said goodbye and now i knw,
how far u'd go..

Bridge:
i know i let u down
but it's not like that now,
this time i'll never let u go,

chorus:
i will be, all that u want
and get myself together,
coz u keep me from falling apart,
all my life, i'll be with u forever,
to get u through the day,
and make everythin okay.

I thought that i had everythin
i didnt know what life could bring,
but now i see, honestly
you're the one thing i got right,
the only one i left inside,
now i can breathe, coz u're with me,

bridge:
and if i let you down,
i'll turn it all around,
coz i would never let u go,

repeat chorus :)

ending bridge:
coz without u, i cant breathe,
im not gonna ever, ever let u leave,
you're all i've got, you're all i want, yeah
and without u, i dont know what i'd do,
i can never ever live a day without you here
with me, do u see?
You're all i need..

Repeat chorus :)

p.s: i love this song lyrics so much. It reflects my feelings towards someone right now..

Get well soon

2008-08-10T22:11:00.000-07:00

Holla~ ones done. Two more exams to go..*sighs*
bsnss exams paper was quiet ok.. Managed to finish on time.. Oh wait, did i finish? Huhu i left out some ov the calculation bits "s
mmm.. Got geo exam tomrow.. Hopefully i can do it.. I havent read it as of yet.. Krg th.. Now gotta sleep dulu..
Btw, my dad's youngest bro got admitted to the hosp. He had a surgery on his throat thingy. Pity him. Wanted to go to the ward but im busy w exams. Il go there probably on wed.
Alright, m tired already.. Til next time.. Bbye.

3pairs ov baju raya :)

2008-08-08T15:25:00.001-07:00

I woke up early today. Arnd 5.25am (i reckon).. Gahh.. Am so lazy.. I knw its gnab a long boring day coz its just plain saturday..

Alright, later at 2+pm my sis wil be going to labuan w her friends. Am nt sho f shes stayin overnight though. My biggest concern is what things she will get for me.. Huhu suspense much.. and of course her safety..(udah atu) Mmmm.. I was intending to write sometin here. But i forgot..*after few minutes ov thinkin* Oh yeah! I have designed three new baju cara melayu tis year; red (a must! Xp), yellow and pink (oh saja pilih colour ane coz i havnt got em colors yet) hehehe. Hopefully tis years raya wil be great.. Neah~ exams time :|

mmm.. Ok.. M lazy to think and type now.. Have fun readin.. Tc..

P.s/ i miss to read the rejects' blog page..

am not supposed to do tis!

2008-08-07T14:34:00.001-07:00

Hushh! *finger on my lips* i knw am not supposed to post anythin during tis timeframe.. But my hunch guides me to do so.. So yeah.. Recently nothing special occured to me.. As usual, skewl time.. I escaped gp classes more oftenly these days.. Huhu setan d skulah menghasut. Had trial mock exam on last tues. It was fine dou a lil bit tensed coz i wasnt quiet ready as of yet.. Gahh.. Having stated the qualifyin exams wil embark on tis mond. Andd guess what? Bsnss studies wil be held on that day! Yay! The next day will be geo and the next next day will be socio n gp.. Yayy!! *fake smile* syok eh exams betamu atu.. Mm.. I wonder sapa yg set the goddamn jadual.. *sighs* this means that i must cram my brain to rvise all ov the required topics.. Eh nyusahkn eh!!

Ok.. Move on pls.. Ha! Tadi was lady demotion day (lurus ka toh?) yg penting nya, she was demoted from being an Mp to being a 'normal' student.. Huhu am not implying anytin here xp dont bother abt the inverted commas xp hehe.. Oh its been awhile.. That i didnt read the rejects posts. Sorry guys, if ure readin tis, i just cudnt get thru the page.. Mybe its too fancy?? Lol. And, i was wondering why we were so emo tadi. Talking abt sad love songs. Seriously? That was romantically freaky xp bt liked it dou..

Mm.. B4 i forgot, i went to capers again tadi.. I had 4 dishes includin pizza and the barbeque beef ribs sometin sometin.. *drools* nyaman~ its worth trying.. Bh sapa mau date w me, f we r clueless abt where we should eat at, just go to capers.. Trust me, u wudnt even want to stop coz its so finger-lickin-good. Huhuhu. Yeah. U will want to lick more. Huhu wtf? Yes yes im kinky~ so? Huhu bh bh til then.. Love u readers loadz.. Xoxo

I wont be here.

2008-08-01T08:27:00.001-07:00

I will be temporarily inactive for probably 2weeks due to exams fever. And for those who enthusiastically care to know whats happenin to me are welcomed to dial up my number or msg me *broad smiles* tc people. Love you loadz.

Trial exams. Pfft

2008-07-28T04:47:00.001-07:00

Mm.. Exams? Very soon for me.. In fact, il be having a trial bsnss studies mock exams on the 5th august.. God! Havnt started netink yet. I know no point 4 me to be overly paranoid while doing nothing to actually prepare for it. *sighs* idk why ive been worryin abt my june exams results and which course should b taken in uni. Oh maybe its bcz I found one ov my sis's friends has just been given a scholarship to UK. what a lucky gurl! *sniff* m so tired lately. I seriously need awakenin pills! I knw its dumb to say i havnt actually been mentally in skewl.. But seriously, awu. I felt m just physically in skewl longing to go home sja and absorbed nothing but daydreaming all day long.. And tadi.. Finally.. I woke up from the fairy daydreams.. Bru ku alert that im gna b sitting for A Level in few more months.. Gahh.. Mudahan th i can cope w my studies. Mcm inda sanggup g. But i knw i shud get a grip or do sumtin abt it.. Mmm.. Enough said.. Oh i went to gdg tis early afternoon, companyin my sis checkin her a/c n photocopyin some slips to be brought tmrw 4 her 1st orientation day in UBD.. And also tadi i checked my other blog.. Sorry to ezun, dye n sharon coz i havnt posted anythin in there coz yaknw, busy bh.. Plus its kinda hard for me to update since m using hp sja.. Uwa uwa uwa :'( bgi th ku wireless nah. Lol *stares* to lady, iknw uve been stressing out lately. Idk whats bothering u but hopefully u wont get too much affected to whatever is goin on.. Uknw i awez love u, kan? Kan? Huhu mm.. Idk what else to write here *bites nails*..
I shall stop now.. Pls Pardon me for the late posting in the future..

Capers again.

2008-07-25T06:57:00.001-07:00

Im busy right now.. Updatin two blogs ani fun rupanya.. Eh eh.. I went to capers yesterday and as mentioned in my other blog, i ate 5 diff types ov pizzas and one ov em unintentionally had cheese on it. Yatah i tarus had stomach ache. But now am ok.. Tadi ptg i went to SCR. Hehe. As usual, i ordered roasted chic rice, kai lan vege and soya bean. *wiping me drool* now m so full. *lying on the couch* its rainin again tonight.. Bgus lah. Coz i m so burning up.. Mmm.. Oh yeah, ive finished my socio draft 4 tmrw's class test *relieved* hehe.. Oh another thing worryin me.. The qualifyin exams. Goddamnit! I havnt started any rvision yet. Gahh. Mati gue! Err.. Nvm.. Nanti tah. Wawawaw.. Btw, id like to congratulate my sis of passing her Ielts exams..
Mm.. Il stop now.. Tc ppl..

get one of these for me, and ill marry you =p

2008-07-21T20:49:00.000-07:00

i am craving for food...

Imy

2008-07-20T07:50:00.001-07:00

when everythin is said and done, we cant rewind back the time or even regret about it.. thats just how life suppossed to be.. Oh why do i say this? Saja.. Hehe..
Early tis afternoon i had kinky chat w naach zebra. Huhu had fun.. Bit scary dou.. P.s naach, if u readin tis, what said in the msn, stayed in msn. Lol
chatted w ezun jua. Oh i miss tis humourous gurl.. Mm.. Oh before i 4gt, lady, ive read ur blog. U shudve put some more pics ov ours there. Well, afterall, im impressed.. Huhu ^."
oh.. Tadi my mum liat dangdut.wawawa. So i stucked jua. Mmm.. I kinda enjoyed it. Bowh! Its so not me.. Mother! U influenced me! Lol
i didnt go anywhere today.. Mau makan luar p mls jua.. So i just eat twistis n maggie ja.. Not quite a nyummy food eh? But at least its enough to full my tummy.. Hehe
i somehow feel so lonely right now *romantic song playing* mmm.. Wish i have someone to hug.. Oh my... *sighs* sapa yg testuck in my head ane? Why am i thinkin abt tis person? Bowh.. Am being so corny now.. Better stop harm! Huhu
mmm.. " Deras ujan yg turun mengingatkn diriku pada mu.. Aku masih dsni utk setia.. Selang waktu pun brgnti. Aku tak tahu engkau dmana. Tapi aku dsini mencuba utk setia.. " lagu sapa ni? I want to know.. Help me.. Huhu.. Am currently listenin to tis song dari tv.. Bowh.. Udah! Udah! Kana sue ku krg 4 being overly romantic.. Huhu.
Btw, il update soon again.. Hehe tc ppl.

Home alone

2008-07-19T04:29:00.000-07:00

Im home alone right now. Got so bored so i thought its bloggin time ^.^
its raining slightly here in rimba. My parents and siblings are leaving me T_T huhu nada deh. They went to padang ja. I dont wana tag along because i dont like the crowd.. And the smell too. Huhu.
I read ezun's blog just now. And yes dear, ure welcome. P.s dont forget the two years deal 0.o' hehe.
Mmm.. Oh its kinda depressing that our sociology tutor will be leaving us soon *cries* hes a very talented teacher. Seriously, hes so good that u wont even bother to miss a class. Hope he'll do great in the future..
Ok.. Tadi dskulah, someone was absent or missing should i say?. Siapa nah? Ezun.. Huhu. Overslept ya. So i ended up w shirley saja masa ps. Hehe. Felt kinda awkward coz w ezun, menyerlah our naughtiness.. Ani, ea nada tadi. But nvm..
Ha! We (the people in socio class) were surprised tadi when in the middle of the lesson, someone popped into the class. Siapa nah? C naz.. Huhu. Smua urg tarus signalling each other bh. Panat eh. Bedusa bnr. Huhu. Naz was thought to be running away from home and went to USA bh. It was true that she went there but not bcz she ran away but bcz.... Err.. I dont know?! Huhu thats her life.. So yeah..
I went home at 2pm tadi. God! Geo tadi msa tgh hari was as usually, B.O.R.I.N.G!! I was like counting every seconds of the time in which my life is wasted. Huhu.
Got picked up NOT by my dad tadi. Huhu. Siapa uh? Wondering? Achaler.. Huhu. Ok ok. Then went to wywy to eat mee mamak. Nyaman uh sana. M addicted to it! Huhu. After that went straight home. Lalala~
*looking outside ov the window* oh the rains stopped. Bagus bagus. Mm.. Apa kan ku buat neh home alone uh. Home party? Ha! Lets do it.. Not.. Nada dgn.. Gahh.. Wish ezun is here. Lol just kiddin. We can do sometin here hun * i wanna be on top~* lol jk jk
Oh i think i better go now. Hehe. Tc people.
P.s ezun, shirley wants us to produce a blog 4 the three ov us. What do u think abt that? And lady, saya ada cerita. Huhu. Apakn. Bh bh

the songs you played on the radio..

2008-07-17T00:37:00.000-07:00

The songs are;

1. Youre one in a million. *nt quite sure lurus or inda*

2. Rossa's song yg kna nyanyikn smula oleh v.e *lupa lagi tajuk lagu nya..*

3. Always be my baby by david cook *huhu.. Tis one definitely ku ingat*

4. Somethin somethin selingkuh itu indah? *adui.. Pelupa eh*

eh.. Random aku ane.. Wish i had long term memory.. Seriously, i forgot stuff easily but not instantly lah uh.. Huhu. Mmm.. Btw, 'i dont eat cheese but i will eat pizza if its on top ov you..' Huhu grrrrrr... M bored and m missing someone.. I dont wna whine, complain or anytin today.. Just.. M Sick ov life..

I asked lady randomly, i think a week ago kali, pasal napa options exist. Why we need to choose one out ov two. And why sometimes we regret apa yg tani pick sdgkn we want it? Gahh.. Na ku phm eh..

P.s life is a dildo. Lol i dont even understnd what m typing. Hehe Bimbo. Bye2.

Can i go out w u next time again? Huhu

2008-07-16T10:10:00.001-07:00

Yes! Finally i can go online.. Fuck! its been, what, 5 days kah inda mau. And luckily tonight dapat. Huhu. Lots to be updated here..

Am recovered already now.. Tapi msh la bedengung suara ane. Huhu. Sbr th sja.. I had mc on mond. So i had 3 self-holidays la. Mm.. Tadi i told pinah a secret. And she went like 'oh yaka? I expect that plg.. But thanks 4 being honest to me' huhu malu ku eh.. But again, i trust her..

oh list utk new ubd intake gone out today. And a big congrates to my sis coz shes got in. And td i helped her out, typing a resignation letter for her. So shes quitting from baiduri bank on next thurs.. Hehe.

Gahh, tadi gp we watched 'supersize me'.. Quite interesting movie dou.. Looking forward to watchin it again.. Not!!

Last night, as in july 15th, i went out w a friend to aneka rasa to have our cakoi session arnd 5pm. But when we got there, cakoi nya abis dh so we just ate martabak n hot milo for me and teh tarik for him.. Then we talked about alot ov stuff and udah byr etc, we went to buy susu 4 his dad. Masa ea suh hold the tins, my palms were sweaty bh. I tot he wudnt gv it to me dulu n guess what, telapas bh tin atu and it hit his leg. God! I knw it hurt like hell n he went like jumping arnd in pain.wawawa.i just laughed. Then of course minta maaf la.. Huhu it ws so funny.

Arnd 7pm, ea sent me home. But otw home, ada si dia mc.. I tot si dia nmpk aku d kiulap but pnya ea kn bwa jalan. M ok to be the last resort dou.. Lol At least si dia is thoughtful jua masih. Huhu *looking at si lady*wink*

i asked si dia to meet me up di wywy lambak ja, so my fwn sent me there.si dia was 5mins late bh. Bt nvm.. Oh yeah. Ani kira kmi first time jumpa lapas raya last year. Huhu. Bgus.. Bgus.. Setahun sekali ja ah.. Huhu

we were clueless plg.nato kn kemana.it was rainning bh.n ive jst recovered.so namo ke bandar. Hehe. So since kami dua lum dinner, we went to blue eden n yeah.. Ate there *laughs*

then jalan2 d jerudong park. I knw si dia wudnt want to antar ku alek awal. I get it.lol.perasaan eh.. Mm.. I wish there will be another outing w si dia.. *requestin* huhu. Apakn~

btw to my lady, atu basar sgt wh uvat mu uh.. F atu utk ku, omg.. Naku idup g toh. Hehehe. Mmm.. Apa g kn ku ceta ane? Ha? Shuif got a tale to tell me tmrw. I soo wna knw. N he escped gp clas today. Bastard! *yells bitchily* huhu. Bowh bru ku ingat, ada urg ucap aku bitch balik2 msa jalan on the 15th uh.. Mmm.. Do i deserve it?

*clicking the post button*

Restless

2008-07-12T18:28:00.001-07:00

Mother theressa! (wtf?!) gahh.. Its 9am now.. I didnt get gud sleep last night.. The sore in my throat is so killing me *sniffs* yeah.. The cold as well..

Few mins ago, i viewed blogs yg viewed mine.. So yeah.. Interesting stuff.. Currently dou, im watching 'house of mouse' with my lil i-dont-wanna-give-u-the-remote sister.. Im stuuuuucccckkkkkkk!! *screams*

Had a cup ov tea just now.. Wanted to eat but.. Err.. U know why *sad face*

ohwkey dowkey, what shuld i do now? Wnted to use my laptop to upload pics but unfortunately, the charger got broken. Yes it did! *cries* gahh.. Need an urgent help here.. Havent gt the chance to look for a new charger..

Mmm.. Ish.. Something is bothering me.. apart frm the annoying pouts from some ppl, my i-conquer-the-tv-today sister, tis bloody sudden sickness and my cluelessness. *sighs again*

My favourite quote when im w pinah n shuif is 'i wannabe on top~' huhu. Randomness. We are the annoying gp bitches *hi-5* huhu.

What else? *thinkin* ha! My mum told me that id get my license after raya kali.. Cant wait eh.. And hopefully id get best grades tis june exams. And ive been longing to know what presents they'd give to me.. Ka-ching $_$' huhu.. U shud be proud ov ur demanding son ane mother! :p

mm.. Ok m running out ov words now.. Think i better stop now.. Wish me recovered soon.. *waves*

Im sick and weak.

2008-07-12T09:34:00.001-07:00

Gosh.. I hate this! A sudden cold n sore throat attacks.. Yes.. Am sick right now.. Suddenly wah.. *sighs*

evendou damam, i ws forced to attend my cuz's bbq tadi.. Gahh.. Urg damam, p smoke is so byk.. Sanak ku. My selesma spoiled my appetite.didnt eat alot coz i felt so weak.. Hopefully il b ok on mond.. (btw, liyana, this is why i didnt enter geo class tadi.) hehe. Bt nxt time f kn escape, il bring u along. Lol

i chatted w sum ppl back then in skewl. Heard lotsa sad, happy, shocking stories from everyone.. Ohh~ life is a drama.. Ada2 sja bh.. Gotta get a grip n deal w it then..

*wiping his nose* ehh.. I reali feel so miserable now after, not only the fact that m sick but knowing some friends ov mine treated me as f m nt trustworthy.. And even worse, some ov em even lied to me.. Err.. Huge disappointment there.. Well, as ppl said, life is unfair.. Neah not really.. Ppl yg make it unfair..

Oh i cnt hold on any longer. M kinda headache now. Just ate my medicine dou..

Btw, ppl, this is my blog. Whatever thats expressed here are my words, my feelings and my freedom. So if theres unsatisfaction, just leave tis page and just, yaknow do other stuff.. Huhu. And, If u dont like it, just ignore it. Nothing gna change that. Pardon me. Tc. Bye ppl. Lalala~ *sneezes*

Guilty

2008-07-11T15:38:00.001-07:00

Holy~i feel guilty to someone. Its a he btw. Gahh.. How can i get rid ov tis uneasy, lousy feelings? *sighs*

ive been so busy recently. Hell alot ov things had to be done. I went out on thurs nite, doing cliche stuff. Then went to a friend's house, helping him out w script writing.. It was initially complicated. But as i practiced, it wasnt that bad dou..

I went online yesterday, kn cri my friend suruh ea burn kn cd for me. But ea nada so i ended up chatting w lady, shuweef the bitch n some other friends ov mine.. But it wasnt long coz connection was bad n i was tired jua. Hehe.

I checked people's blog last nite. N surprise surprise! I found ezun's.. Ha! She told me she has no blog.. Gahh.. *frustrated* fine ezun.. U cruel gurl! Hehe *sarcastic laugh* wawawawa. Na deh.. I dont mind... Not! Xp

mm.. I cnt wait for the charity sale krg dskulah uh.. Wondering what'd be sold.. Huhu

bh gtg now.. Btw, dye, how cn i link u? I dnt evn knw ure addy xp huhu

It happens naturally

2008-07-08T09:03:00.000-07:00

Skewl was boring today. I ws tired as usual.. Mmmhm.. Gotta wake up early til lapas sultan's birthday coz dad's gotta get to work bfore 6.30am. Imagine awal sja wah ku bgun *sighs*

sir stuart (my geo tutor) talked to me before i left the class.he wasnt apparently impressed w my work.. Gahh.. Biarin..

Err why am i using the indon word?huhu.gezz ter influenced cz bca blog someone td. Btw m so in love w tis cerita indon called 'intan'.. Gosh.. Awesome. Huhu

i was busy doing my bsns hw msa lunch.yatah got to eat sum bread given by lady ja tadi.huhu.lapar plg..p inda sampat kan lunch.. I was so bugged td coz my dad aher ambil balek uh.my class ended at 2pm n he fetched me up at 3 bloody pm. *rolls eyes* pns lagi tadi. I was sweatin lyk a pig.

Mmm.. For no apparent reasons, I group chat w shuweef n fids tadi. Had so much fun talking abt random stuffs. Not to mention, mengumpating si **** (not to be disclosed here thou) hehe.. Bcz ov d group chat, na ku telayan the others esp lady. M sorry uh *hugs*

damnit! i was so hungry tadi. Wanted to eat soto p aher udah. Asmad told me, he went to pizza hut w begok tadi.. Gahh.. Jahat u guys! Na mbwa2.. Huhu

i miss someone so bad now.. *looks down*cries* those memories and your sarcasms. Weird.. Somehow i miss it.. Oh never mind..

I just remember this cliche quote frm people : ' try not to think about the used-to-be or the past coz it benefits you nothing plus they may not think of u so why bother? ' huhu.. This is true, aint it? Emo much. But sometimes, it happens naturally.

Alright, guess i have nothing left to type here.. Tc people. Bye2

I cant

2008-07-06T16:13:00.000-07:00

Its been awhile i dont go bloggin. Well, here i am now.. Hehe

currently am in the school canteen w lady.. M so clueless about what am gona type here.. Lets see..

Oh recently i did check my blog ane tapi viewed n read ceta urg ja. Was n stil am terharu when i read lady's blog *sobs* harm syg u too.. Wawawawawa. I sound corny..

I talked to mumy last nyt pasal kn buat pasport uh. I had one p expired udah. Cg suhaili requested me to b the school representative for syarahan cmpetition. There goes.. My chance.. Tapi jauh uh. D temburong.. Gaah! So i cant go coz firstly, mls kn buat pasport. F i do make one, na sampat uh. The compe is on tis sat. Secondly, i dnt wana go w cg suhaili. Huhu. I gez its obvious why xp

oh yeah.. I forgot to mention, i finally went out w pinah n shuif on last thurs. We went to buffet in capers,kiulap. Nyaman yaw! U ppl shud try there.. Hehe. Not enuf makan, syok begila w them uh. Huhu inda lupa, vaining wh sorang2.

And yesterday i went to nyonya restaurant. Quite mahal but its worthed lah. Hehe. The food was nice..

Mmm.. Apa g uh? Oh yes.. To those yg inda single atu, happy2 th selalu. Wtf? Random much. Huhu. Gtg now.. Bye ppl.

Im back again (for awhile only thou) :)

2008-07-02T15:26:00.000-07:00

Oh apart from being busy w life n studies i have nothing to type here.. Oh wait! Ada..

My bstfrnd damam msa ne. Shes been absent for 2 days uh. Huhu shean.. Get well soon dear :)

shuif suruh viewed his blog n i did. Huhu.adeh~kes boring wah ea create hairstyle utk ea uh. Smua hairstyles suited ea uh.. Sasak ku eh. Wawawawawa.

Eh eh remember the previous post i talked abt the obsessed gurl? Ha.. Ia invited me later. Majal kn liat movie lagi uh. But i refused. Wawawawa hopefully she wont paksa me later.

Oh izun was psychopathic tis lately *julur ia* huhu ada kah patut ea suh ku msuk p2f *laughs* as f i want to.. Huhu. N yesterday we talked alot about cool stuffs. Yes! N we created a club called 'the horny club' huhu i knw we sound so crazy..

Btw,urg yg kna shortlisted in mindef scholar wil hav their written test today. Wish em luck..

I went out w as last nyte.aher arnd 10pm x.after ea jmp sumone.he told me panya that 'sumone' atu was my ex! Huhu. What a coincidence! Yth luan kn chat sja. Huhu. I had fun thou dgr ceta nya smbil makan di bndar uh. Apa kn d pggil toh?tamu ka?whatever.. Huhu

Arggghhh Crap! Qualifyin exams are ahead ov me.need to prepare. So wont be able to update my blog frequently.. So yeah.. Thanks for readin tis people. Hehe. Best wishes. Bye2.

Ddr yg lebih siyok!

2008-06-25T12:39:00.000-07:00

Mmm.. Today was fairly ok lah.. I slept aher last nite n i got woken up by the mc's n msges frm the obsessed gurl.. *sighs* na dpt tydo sanang bh.. Ish..

I ws so bored tadi ptg. So just limpang2 di bilik smbil dgr mp3. Hehe. Was so romantic td. Dgr lagu agnes monica ja. Huhu. P na lama lah. Cz i got bored so yt tv ja..

Arnd 6pm, my mum asked to accompany her n my lil sis ke salun.so i came w em.. Aku lah yg kna suh picked style apa utk my lil sis. N i picked tis pic. Lawa lah rmbut that model in dt pic..

Guess what hppnd, alum g sampat ku explain rh hairstylist atu, my sis called me up kn bwa liat wayang. So i had to go n leave my mum ja yg instruct the hairstylist.. I got home, tukar bju n etc etc.

Otw, my mum called my dad.so kmi tarus ambil them dari salun n head off tarus to mall gdg. Huhu tekajut ku meliat rmbut my lil sis uh. Inda jua ada beza. Ada plg. Nipis ja. Totally na sama w d one in d pic i chose..

Oh yeah.. Dh smpai mall, i asked my sis kn yt ceta pa. She answered 'get smart'.. Adui.. Udah ku liat. Huhu. Then i didnt ikut her liat movie. She was w her friend, si red..

So i just wander arnd. Texted em friends to come to gdg. Whilst waiting, i went to uni. Menyanyi d kbox alone. Huhu. It was fun dou.. I miss plg kn kbox-ing w c lady. Hehe. Next time th g..

Dh my friends dtg, we went off to the other arcade (yg bks ice skating uh).. Maen ddr kmi.. Murah yo! One token for one player compared to uni which is two tokens for one player..

ddr nya, although alil bit outdated, lagu2 nya byk n lawa2. N most importantly, it has til 5th rounds or 8th rounds. Cn u imagine? One token for one player (2 tokens cn make 2 players, ov course) and u got to play til 5 rounds.. Huhu apa kn aku uh.. Mcm promo th plg. Bt hey, u shud try there. Its fairly good!

Then, lapas maen, we got so hungry so we had our dinner rh food court (well, aku plg ja makan toh cz they wnted to go to blue eden n sadly i cudnt join em tadi)..

When we were done ( i mean me.. Hehe they jst dgni aku) i looked for my sister. Rupanya ea d swenson.. Enjoying her ice cream. N yes! I had some ov it jua. Huhu.

Arnd 1045pm, i got tired.so i asked my parents to pick us up. So yeah.. Balik kumah lapas mndy n tukar baju, i watched tv. Hehe. N now, here i am bloggin..

*lookin at his watch n yawns* oh its time to go.. Ok.. Have fun readin.. Tc people.

two pictures only ;p

2008-06-25T02:30:00.000-07:00

ohhh.. wooii!! apa focus di bawah sana atu th plg? lol.. sapa yang view my blog ani.. di minta relax.. huhuhu explicit ehh.. but i knw u guys like it, kan? kan? :p

nahh.. te tydo tah ku plg.. hhuu apakan~

am superbored now..yath buang boreng ja upload my damn pictures.. heheheh.. bah dua ani tah je.. lalalalalla~ bye2 people..

Hot story! Must read tis! Huhu

2008-06-24T11:20:00.001-07:00

Tadi afternoon arnd 1.30pm i went to lady's place kn bgi ea hadiah belated burfday nya *sorry late* hehe.. I knew ud like it.. F inda, baek bgi balik! Huhu jk. We went on9 skjp. Cek blog, fs n youtube-ing.. It ws fun lah. N we had milo shake *specially made by lady for me* and cucur pisang. Hehe. Nyummy..

Then nora txtd me up askin if id wnt to join em watch movie. N i said yes cz they said they were w their cousins..

Oh yes cousins. Intially i tot cousins drg laki2.. Panya.. Msa msuk kereta nya, *fyi, drg yg aga ku alek dumah lady* smua gurls. Bowh.. Tekajut lah n speechless tarus..

i requested the driver *one of the gurls* to drive me kumah first cz i ned to ambil my wallet n chnge my attire.. Then we off to gdg..

I sensed sometin fishy plg at first. Bt i was on a silent mode stil. Then i 'kidnapped' c nora n asked why i ws brought jua. Panya... *this is when the suspend part goes*

the driver *one ov the gurls* like me! Yes LIKE, LOVE, ADORE.. Name it all.. Tarus ku banggang.. God.. They are like paris hilton-bitchy-like.. Youknw, party type n ka-ching $$$ type.

Yth i ignored it ja. So we went on watchin get smart. There were 17 ov us. Yes bnyak! N all the tickets, drinks n pop corns were all paid by the driver *the gurl that likes me.. Btw, dnt get me wrong.. Shes nt a driver , driver. * huhu

more interestingly, pas yt wayang, tarus i told em that i jst balek ikut my guy friend. Sampat lah i thanked that gurl yg blnja uh.. I tot it ended dt moment.. Panya, arnd 8pm she texted me up lagi..

Guess what, she wanted to lanja me movie g at 9pm. Im like 'is she crazy n desperate?!' yes! Scary! M shocked yaknw.. Ada pny gurl yg sgup buat apa sja to dptkn a guy..

*sighs* shes got my number udah frm my friend. Talor wh. She kept on msg-ing n tryna call me up. To avoid it, i told her i ws outta cdt. N guess what? She transfered me some crdt..

God! Yes now u see how desperate she is. Majal calling me up arnd 12am td. I answered cz sanak udh hp ane vibrate sja uh..

She told me she wanted to go out w me lagi esuk. She BEGGED me.. God! Aku lelaki ane plg tau malu.. Antah eh.. Obsessed bnr jua ya uh..

P.s if u have any suggestions ov how to get rid ov her, pls help me.. Shes like astro bills. Huhu. Selagi inda di byr, slagi atu kna putung. Huhu i knw m nt making any sense here. Bh gtg. Kn tydo. Hpefully she wont kacau me esuk *doa*

I almost drowned

2008-06-23T09:40:00.001-07:00

I went to stadium tadi. Swimming w my siblings. It was at 3pm til 5pm. Huhu. Syok! But tiring.. I almost drowned tadi. Luckily my two lil bros saved me. Yes! They did. Huhu gi malu jua toh..

When we got home, tarus ku msuk toilet n had a bath lagi. Felt so burning up. Then arnd 7pm had ambuyat session w my whole family. Hehe. I liked it. Everyone seem concentrate eating. Mcm nada yg becerita. Huhu i cud only see the food makin sedikit n finally abis.. Alhamdulilah..huhu

Arnd 8pm, i went out w a friend. I went to a shop to buy lady her presents. Nothing fancy but so lawa n surely can be used frequently. Hehe. Bkn bra eh. Lol *oh btw lady, esuk insyallah il go to ur place n give it to u yeah*

ooh.. its 12+am now. I just got home actually. Hehe. Yth otw home tadi, i saw a kitten got run over at my friend's house. Kesian wh :'( yth my friends ckp durang kn kubur kn later. Yes lapas drg antar aku uh. Huhu. Spooky~

alright, before i go, tadi i read some of the updates made by my blog-friend-lists.. Lady, are u in love w c ham ka? Why do i feel so? Huhu. N n congrates dpt yur wallet balik. Huhu.

Ok.. Gtg nw.. Bye2 people..

i stay in love - mariah carey

2008-06-22T22:47:00.000-07:00

Dying inside cause i cant stand it,
make or break-up cant take this madness,
we dont even really know why,
all i know is baby i try and try so hard to keep our love alive,
if u dont know me at this point then i highly doubt u ever will,
i really need u to give that unconditional love i used to feel,
its no mistaking,we're just erasing from our hearts and minds,

¤ and i know we said let go
but i kept on hanging on
inside i know its over, u really gone
its killing me, cause there aint nothin that i can do
baby, i stay in love w u,

* and i keep on telling myself that u'll come back around,
and i try to front like 'oh well' each time u let me down,
see i cnt get over u now no matter what i do,
but baby, baby i stay in love with you..

Na na na na na na na na na 3x
baby, i stay in love with u

it cuts so deep,
it hurts down to my soul,
my friends tell me,
i aint the same no more, we
still need each other when we stumble and fall,
how we gon act like we had aint nothin' at all now
hey,what i wanna do is ride short,
gun next to u with the top
down like we used to hit the block
proud in the suv
we both know our heart is breakin
can we learn from our mistakes?
I cant last one moment alone
now go.

Repeat ¤

repeat *

we said lets go

repeat ¤ and * again..

I beg your pardon

2008-06-22T11:13:00.001-07:00

what a miserably sad night! Ive shedded a tear tonight. seriously m nt being sarcastic or braggin here. m just so sorry for my heartless offence.

One thing for sure, I hold no grudge on no body.

Oh.. what have i done? Ive just broken one faithful heart. Wait! that person broke mine first! or is it the other way around? Oh the point is m cruel to make you cry.. i dont know what else to type here.

why dont u make an effort to stop sulking and got back to me? Its just a small matter.. at least i think it is. Really. I beg your pardon. M nt good in calming people down. Stop making me feel guilty. It sucks. And u know i worth a second chance.

P.s please let me know whats really happenin here bcz m so clueless. And cigar kills me! And lady, we really need to decide whether o not we should be going to zaty's function TOGETHER.